So I realize it's been MONTHS since I've written, and I do sincerely apologize, but life has been kinda crazy nutso!! You know what I mean?? However, in my LONG absence I've had quite a bit to think about and rely on God for. There have been so many things that I've wanted to hold on to and try to control and God has shown me over and over again that I'm not strong enough to do everything. I look around and I see pain everywhere. My family has so many secret hurts and burdens. Some members are going down a dangerous path and I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!! I worry incessantly and I just wish I could take some of the weight off their shoulders. I wish more than anything that there was some way I could separate them from their bodies so that they could look at themselves and see what they are doing. That is obviously impossible, but God cares about what I care about. He promises that my prayers do not fall on deaf ears. No problem is too small or too big for him. He keeps telling me that I'm not God, I can't change how my family lives or how they view him. God is telling me to LET GO and TRUST him! He knows what the big picture is, and I have to trust that he will cradle my loved ones in his arms and watch over them. As much as I love them, God loves them even more! I will hold on to that truth and take comfort in it!
"Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."
Psalm 32:8
